Why on earth did i go with my heart.
My heart is always wrong.
Making the wrong choices.
Why can't i just go into account courses?
Why on earth i choose art.
Yes, I am interested in art, but heck, i can't draw.
I DRAW LIKE SHIT!
And now i think i'm gonna waste my mum's money to retake
WHY?
WHY?
Can't i just go IT?
Why the freak did i chose here.
But i'm not giving up now. I'm gonna fight my way through.
I don't care. The most is that i become insane.
LET ME DIE.
Just a brief update, I'm rushing assignment like mad the 2 weeks. As in really crazy, never felt so stress before, not even in O levels.
Stress that become so unbearable to me. And yes, peers that are really discouraging rather then encouraging rub salt into the wound.
Sometimes, i wonder are they really friends or just waiting for a time so they could stab you really hard in the back.
Yes, sometimes i really comtemplating of something i told Sharon. I'm really looking to it, because i really really need to.
So frigging pissed with one of my friend. I almost become a replica of JJ.
Really enjoyed worship in mid-week, maybe the prayers are abit too long, i really almost fall asleep while standing. Yes. Really, that shows how tired i am.
Really looking forward to term break. Thats like the next step towards heaven to me.
Hope my assignment won't let me down.
I can't stand you.
Hey man, i really can't stand you anymore. Yes, Moses you are the first person to make me blow up in tertiary. If not for them stopping me, i wonder where you will really end up. You know i'm pissed and can't you just stop? You just have to push me past the limits.
Though sometimes i really sympathize you for being left out. I don't mind you just kidding around, but when you see i'm very angry can't you just stop? I'm not a person who talks with my fist, i no longer that old me, but why must you try to being the old me back again.
Firstly, i see you as my old self, i tried to befriend you and tried to make you a better person, but heck, you took me as someone i can bully because i'm always smiling and wouldn't get angry. But hey, now you know how much devil i have in me. Secondly, after that pimp coment from you, i even went to the washroom to ask God for grace to forgive you. But you just continued and you see a side of me you wouldn't like to see.
So are you happy now?
If you ever do that again.
I don't care the consquences.
You be so frigging dead.
Yes, on your death bed.
Monday, August 15, 2005
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Half-Dead
Sunday, August 07, 2005
Hmm. FOP!
If one day Hillsong and Delirious decided to combine guess what?
They would become Hilarious
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
The Echo Effect
Why nobody believe that i'll do it? Why?
Who would expect someone who bring me up, brought me deeper to where i was before.
Whatever you said has been ringing and ringing in my ears.
Did you know the after effects of what you said?
Sometimes too much of wet blanket can just kill a person.
Not kidding. I am one victim now.
Someone murdered my soul.
Monday, August 01, 2005
The Daggered Mouth
I know you meant well, but sometimes going too far you will just break my confidence. That confidence i slowly bulided up, just broke into pieces by what you said. By just one sentence you almost made me gave up. Guess the mouth really heart the most.
Just kill me won't you?