Looking through the corner of he eyes,
he figured what was standing next to him,
before shutting his eyes tightly,
in a gentle breath, it whispered into his ears.
Look at me, it said.
Scared as he is,
he cupped ears with both his hands.
refusing to hear anything nor to see anything.
As he sits at his chair trembling with fear
know that the figure is still right next to him
without realising, how lovely the figure was.
he lift his hands away from his ears,
gently squinting his eyes open,
turning his head towards the figure,
his mind became filled hate,anger,shame and fear.
he angrily pushed his seat away,
stood up and push the figure away,
the push of hate,fear,shame and anger.
as the figure lays on the floor screaming,
not in pain, but of brokenness in the heart.
The figure picked itself up,
No more loveliness, no more gentleness
it screamed, "don't you recongise me?"
"why are you ashamed to look at me?"
Silence filled the air for a moment
Standing face to face to the man, it continued,
"I am you, your past, the one you killed and hated"
"to become who you are now, why are you ashamed of me"
As the figure spoke this, the man silented, refusing to look at the figure
Just because he ashamed and afraid of the ghost of him.
P.S; I just did this writing, as i had the "feeling" to do a writing about battling the ghost inside yourself. Cause i felt that too many people are being insecure because they are afraid and ashamed of their past. So that thought of it, just bring insecurity to them.
You caught me off guard with
That kiss which started everything
The hold that sealed the feelings
Never felt so good to be so wrong
You didn't choose to run away
But you chose to stay.
The look of your eyes that take away
All the insecurities
All the fears and worries
All of frustrations
Your love is the sweetest sin
Now i'm running and screaming
As we lay on the endless lush
Watching the clouds dancing in the sky
Pouring our hearts together
And that every moment with you
Would be a moment well spent
No looking back, no regrets
Everything you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
Where would i go from here
I would fall asleep and dream
that things will always be this way
Drowning in your love
First month.
Summary;
Can't wait to see my pretty girlfriend in the morning.
After service and meeting.
We went to PS, i tricked her into going into the toilet. So that i could collect the sunflowers. When i reached the florist, she said, she need another 10 mins. Panicked! So i came out with the "I'm doing business" excuse.
Then surprised her with a bouquet of balloons. (Thanks to deb and ken to help me collect them)
We were super AA as she called it. ( Attract Attention )
Went to habourfront. Found a quiet spot, took some pictures, before walking to an open space to let go the balloons.
Dinner at Spizza.
Desert at Hagaen Diaz.
AND
LOTS OF FUN!
LOTS OF LOVE!
=)
Had one of the best days of my life :)
Spending time with you, just you.
Happy days!