You step on people to feel better. You suck people's lifes to make you feel better. You can only see one side of the picture. You don't bother about your real friends. Really i don't get it. Sometimes i'm just so sick and tired, with you stepping on me unknowningly. Dissapointment fills me. Maybe one day, my hands would be too tired to hold on anymore.
"Hold on if you feel like letting go" - Good Charlotte's Hold on.
Maybe Good Charlotte is wrong after all. Sometimes you get to weary to hold on anymore.
Give me an answer for all this shit.
Ok, been awhile since i blogged. But yea, this week is a hell of spending. But yea, i enjoy myself. Yea, Spending money is fun. DUH? Ok, today was suppose to finish my gifts. But! I didn't managed to finish them, cause I was lazying around instead. But i managed to finish at least half!
Really no mood for Christmas, cause it's like it had come so fast? Whereas the Christmas 2 years ago is still so fresh in my mind.
This Christmas, really hope it will be something fun. Was hoping it would be on a weekday, so i can spent my whole night out. But! it turned out to be on sunday, and there'll be service in the morning.
Turning back to see my year 2005, I see a trail of struggles, hurts, pains, discouragement. I see happiness and fun too. But I thank God for bringing me through this year. What a year, lots of down, very little up. Unproductive and lethargic.
Looking forward to a new year, hope it will be better, least painful. I don't want to go back there again.
Realise I had been very temperamental latey. I guess, i still need time to digest? Not that i am self-pettying but people just don't realise anything. They treat you as though you are emotionless. I just hope people can stop pouring wet blanket for a moment. Before my spikes really haunt them. I'm not a mental punching bag. Where you can train and hurdle your insults at me. I'm a fully emotional human. So stop treating me like i have no emotions.
Ok, today Kai came to my house and borrow my winter socks and glove. And Yoyo, just can't stop disturbing him. Haha, was so funny.
I haven't gone to appeal. I shall go on tuesday alone.
Don't want to go home, don't want to think about it. I don't want to talk about it. Just let me grumble and morn. For once, please just stop pouring wet blanket on me. I might just drop dead from the pressure.
I thought everything went smoothly? I didn't fail any, but why? I can't accept it. Really. I'm untterly dissapointed and speechless. Put me in a course i don't enjoy. So why did i go to NAFA to look for hope. One setback after another. I'm not superman, I can't take all of it. Now i'm ill. What a week. Great. I really hope I'll just fade away. Slowly, then nobody would notice it. Then i'll be gone. No worries, no trouble.
The day i walk closer to ..................
Well well, Man utd was kicked out of Champion league. For one moment i think Roy Keane would be smiling at how the young "stars" were playing. How right can he be? Afterall 10 years at Old Trafford. He'd know the difference between, Genius and Stars. There are so much stars in United, but these stars didn't last long. Really, I'm disgraced. Even Liverpool could get top of their "Group of Death" group. What about Man Utd? Villareal, Benfica, Lille. I mean. Hello?! They didn't even reach quater finals in the past season. Bah, let me rate their performance on yesterday's match.
Van Der Sar. 5/10 Mixture of good and bad. Bad for the 2nd goal. He stoned! Wt-?
G.Neville. 6/10 One of the better player yesterday. But not good enough.
Rio Ferd. 3/10 Absolute crappy performance. Why give him 100k/pw wages?!
Silvestre. 4/10 Slighty better then counterpart Rio, but sluggish performance.
O Shea. 1/10 Why didn't he close his darn legs for the 1st goal? Crappier then Rio.
Scholes. 6/10 For that "Tyco" goal. Was invisible after that.
Smith. 4/10 He think he is Keane, tackling and sliding without thinking.
Ronaldo. 0/10 Omgosh! You pointed your 3rd finger at your fans?! Wt-?! Sack him!
Giggs. 5/10 Annoymous, but work hard. He is 32, don't expect too much.
Rooney. 6/10 Workoholic of the team. But wasn't at his best.
Nistelrooy. 5/10 Decent but not impressive.
Alex Ferguson. 0/10 Joins Ronaldo at "0" for sacking Keane. He's going.
Ok, I don't know how this would help. But I really want to emphasis on the issue of punctuality. I'm seeing it a problem in alot of people including myself.
Alright, to me being late is just as good as killing a person [slowly]. I'll explain. While you being late, the other party or parties would have to wait. Thus the amount of time you were late was wasted. It's as good as wasting someone elses life. And that's something, no amount of money or what so ever can pay back. Not even millions of sorries. You wasted the person's life and you killed them bit by bit. The schedules changed, everything had to be pushed back. And worst, that's the flaw people are going to pick at. Everybody dislike a "later" [a person who's late in my english] Yes, even if apology is accepted, can't you buy back the person's life? If there's 20 peepz in a group, and you're late 15mins. You wasted 5 hours of time. So is it a nesscesary to be late? A person who is late shows that, that person cannot manage his/her time. Unless in an emergency, but still. [INFORM] is the word. Don't let people wait without notificating them.
So the next time. Try not to be late. :) Cause you'll kill somemore for it.
Don't be guilty of it. Plan early.
Don't know why, this few days had been lots of stoning. But as i was stoning i was thinking bout so much stuff. Yea, yesterday i did RGB like crap. I was look at the screen, then i went into daze. Twice. I really got short attention span. Thought of phrases to things that are happening around me and inside me.
If life is easy, whats the meaning to life?
A broken cloth ment a broken shirt.
If i every give up God, I will give myself up.
Why slap? When mental tortues are more painful.
If only, I would, but, never will, never be.