jon★courtdeath

MY Ramblings

Sunday, July 30, 2006

Holiday!

11 days, this is my long long awaited post. Life's been good, Spiritual life have gone up several notches. Yea. Had assesment last week. Did ok. Was happy with my result. A shoutout to Yili, Jasmine, Angela and Aaron even though he did nothing! haha, for helping me. All of you. Thanks a million.

Holiday already! Yays!

Will update more often. Heh. Don wish to talk too much about soccer today. It just gets my blood boilling.

So much things to scream and shout about. Nothing but trouble i can say.

Sometimes you just don't know who is real and who is fake. I know whose real. But whose fake?

i★courtdeath 11:41 PM

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

My weeklong update.

Alrighty. This year i had a good birthday celebration. Sit around and chat with Jasmine, Aaron, Matthew, Angela, Yili and ShengRou. We had Fish and Co. (btw it was my 1st time ok!) The seafood platter was good. Really good. Then went to Swensens had ice-cream and chatted more. Was wonderful. And the sweet worship team sang a birthday song for me on thursday. Was kinda susprise. I'm offically 18, which is a mixture of bad and good.

Sunday, played soccer. Had quite a nice game, but you can feel the tension from the 1st minute. Was good even though my team lost. Heard a few unnescessary remarks from someone who was an opponent which made me mad. So thick skin.

Went for dinner, heard more unnescessary comments. Which really step on my tail and got me so mad. That person has the skin of an crocodile. How can he say that comment when all my fellow coaches were trying hard to engage the youth. I mean, he just the see outside of what we are doing and he thinks we are not doing anything. WHICH IN FACT, WE ARE DOING SO MUCH THINGS.

To me, he ain't any gentleman, doing all the sneaky sneaky stuff. HOW DARE HE. Won't be suprise if he falls into my "Duh people" list.

Anyway. Played soccer today again. This time, wrong move. I didn't do warm up! And i played, until i heard a "Grk" sound and i've twisted my knee. Now it's so bad i have to walk limping around the house. Haven't seen a doctor yet. Hopes i don't need one.

Next week is assesment week. So fast. 7 week past and HOLIDAY is COMING!

i★courtdeath 2:00 AM

Monday, July 10, 2006

Dead John.

Ok, been lazy to blog. Really. So many frustration. School Work + Ministry + My own spiritual life.

I can't lie. My spiritual life isn't doing all that great this few months. I thought church camp would have given me the must needed boost to get my engine running. Once again, i died on me again. Somewhat, i thought it would be just easy that i could vanish into thin air. Then i think of the friends i would dissapoint. The amount of hurt i would cost them if i were to be irresponsible. The friendship that had been bulit will just vanish too.

Ministries had been frustrating. Tons of question to be cleared. Somehow i can't find an answer cause i couldn't ask. I'm a collusive person. I don't want to be part of any argument or whatsoever. I just want peace even though, i am still frustrated. Moreover. If myself is not really on fire. How can i "question" the ministries. Somehow the weight of everything falls on me.

Come to school. The lecturers ain't much help either. Two replies that made me so pissed. "You have to be more resourceful in finding materials" , "Money is not an issue, you have to be more resourceful".
When i had to spent 30 dollars to do a mock up and i had to do 5 of them. Which would cost me a wooping 150 to finish my mock up. And wait, here's the deal. Each model would be A1 size when all my friends only need to do A4. And the mock up is not my final piece. So tired of school.

Really i don't know what to do.

God help me, as i pray.

i★courtdeath 12:06 AM